Wednesday, December 29, 2010


29th December, 2010....what a day to rediscover and re-commit to my blog :-) So much has happened in my life and is happening since my last post in 2008 that I wonder if I am the same person typing now as was the man that typed at that time.

Well, here we go, starting off on the journey again. I am 31 years old now, jaded, weary, numb and not sure what I am doing in my life, but sure of one thing, it cannot continue this way.

Connection, real energy filled, pulsing connection = 0
Fulfilling hobbies, pastimes = very little
Nourishing and growth-oriented relationship = 0
Career path that feed my soul = ummmm....hmmmm
Any considerable treasure trove = 0

so on this day, as the sands in the hourglass of 2010 ebb out from the top to the bottom. I hope to spend some time thinking, pensively.....what do I want......where am I going?

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Gone for a while

Well, I have not written anything since 2007 and what a shame indeed. So much has happened, changed and taken place in 2008 so far that it is difficult to recap and share all of that. But let me see if a summary may be possible. New job - neither here nor there, great Carnival 2008, thinking of starting my own business, shift in romantic life with more younger people coming into my life, new friends, old friends, new perspectives,and much more.
I hope to write some more as time and life runs away from us so quickly....stay tuned

Monday, December 31, 2007

At the end of another year

Christmas celebrations at my grandmother's (l to r): Chenee(cousin), Nicole (cousin), Sian (sister) and I

This year (2007) has been a year of contrasts. I brought in the year in Holland with my sister and some good friends, hoping that the year would bring great things and in many ways it has but it brought its share of challenges, new perspectives and the ending/beginning of chapters. The first half of the year saw our fantastic odyssey to the Polar Circle and Norway, my discovery of Spain, the completion of my Masters degree and a 100+ page thesis on corporate rebranding and the role of leadership. Living in Sweden and exploring Europe opened my eyes to the difference in the way we live and our perspectives, traditions and behaviours in the developing world and those in the old, developed world.
I started to question what is life really about and what do I want my future to look like. After the completion of my degree, a pleasant graduation ceremony and a whirlwond trip to Paris, London, New York and them home life started to change. Returning to my parents' home, dealing with living with family again, especially parents and then the challenge of finding meaningful work here in my country.
Well, the year is at its end and looking back I can say that I know that all that took place this year will serve as a springboard for a great year in 2008. I am certain that I enter 2008, wiser, smarter, and I pray more open, positive and welcoming the good things to come .
All the best to you and Happy New Year 2008!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Views on a breezy Caribbean day

an unusual view from the stairs

a view of the capital(Port of Spain/Puerta Espana) from Waterloo

new beginnings, discarded past


the confusion of my life


the Hanuman (a Hindu God)Murti stands 85ft high in central Trinidad



good times, good friends
simple yet immense beauty in my backyard

Observations from the next

I am a young citizen of Trinidad and Tobago. I come from modest means but have enjoyed a relatively comfortable lifestyle and opportunities that many would possibly like to have but above all I have worked hard and been conscientious and disciplined to do and get what I have.
I have recently returned to Trinidad after brief sojourn in the UK and completing my Masters in Europe and I guess many would agree that being away from one’s native environment sometimes serve to make things clearer and to see from a different perspective.
One of the things that have been bothering me since my return is the state of dormancy in which our people seem to be. On a daily basis, people everywhere in Trinidad and Tobago complain about the extinct customer service levels in our services and business from private to public, the prices of food and other important living costs such as housing, the spread of debilitating cultural trends such as the recent importation and promotiom of ‘Passa Passa’ to our shores, the ever increasing gap between the ‘haves; and ‘have-nots’, the seeming return to colonial perceptions and attitudes such as racism and discrimination of all forms, the recent decisions to use near to slave labour for the supposed development of our infrastructure,the lack of provision of basic amenities and accurate developmental foci while we piecemeal physical development takes place to support a small elite and the list goes on.
In such an environment where at every turn, a young person is overcome by a sense of helplessness in the sea of anarchy and billowing despair it seems as if the people of my nation are all asleep. Have we never been taught that words are extremely effective but mean nothing if not founded and followed by action? We complain and curse and no one is willing to take the first step to rally like minded people together to make a stand, a statement, start an organisation, promote a cause or any such productive ventures.
If we continue as individuals to disregard the needs of the wider collective in favour of our myopic individualistic perspectives and supposed needs, this society and country is headed for a state of emergency so dire that the current children and toddlers will pay an extremely high price if it is to be restored. If as parents ,young people or just human beings with any state of consciousness and concern not only for ourselves but the generations to come, do not realise that our dormancy and lack of initiative is and will continue to be the reason for the suffering of countless generations to come, I dread to see what our beloved nation will look like in the not too distant future.

Sean Samad

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

VIEWS FROM MY HOME LAND

Evening sky in the east from La Coroupita housing development in El Dorado, Trinidad

My family dog, Smoky, tanning and resting in the grass at midday sun - true happiness




Traditional Mas characters at Food and Folk Fair, Skinner Park, San Fernando


some guys in my family play Scrabble



Drummers at the Food and Folk Fair in Skinner Park, San Fernando, August 2007




Saturday, August 18, 2007

The Witch of Portobello


This amazing new work by Paulo Coelho is intoxicating. I recently started reading this book and could not put it down. The story grips you and there are themes and elements that touch our lives. Below are some quotes that stood out for me while reading. I strongly recommend it.





When I die, bury me standing, because I've spent all my life on my knees


In order for us to understand the powers we carry within us and the secrets that have already been revealed, it was first necessary to allow the surface - expectations, fears, appearances- to be burned away


..we were living in an age in which slavery was the only path to happiness. Free will demands immense responsiblity; it's hard work, it brings with it anguish and suffering